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Petra-Joelle muttered at [1:27 AM]
sighs...i'm finally updating my blog again.since i haven't updated in such a long time it's pointless to actually recount wads been happening.anyway.i just feel kinda depressed cos i've been looking at my booklist.and i realise that the collection of books was during the 9th and 10th period. therefore i'm like how late?!oh well...nth much to say lah.just that i miss my bao bei teri! lurv u lots...l
Petra-Joelle muttered at [1:24 AM]
yeah i got a poem that i wrote for someone...but he'll never know...sigh...
Confessions of me
i'm sitting here thinking
in this big hall
should i take the plunge?
if i do will i fall?
i wanna tell u many things
about how i feel
will you the same to me?
will it ever be real?
such a dilemma i'm in
to tell you or not
will you take me in
or just leave me to rot?
your features so wondrous
for hours i can stare
till nothing else matters
i just want you to care
you never seem to notice
it hurt my feelings then
but i'm only a girl
and you're not yet a man
one thing i know
before my future is set
i'll never forget you
though you don't love me yet
such things i could show you
such things you could see
can you make it happen
can such things ever be
do you know you work magic
got me under your spell
such emotions i've been getting
that no one can i tell
only you can fulfill my wishes
only you can make my dreams come true
cos there's nothing that i want more
than me being together with you
sill remember that glorious smile
still think of your most tender touch
if only you would simply realise
that it's you i long for so much
i want to give you this poem
the one i just had to write
want to spill out the innermost secret
that has tortured me through the night
knowing i love you is easy
saying i love you is hard
don't break my heart in pieces
and spare not even a shard...
Petra-Joelle muttered at [7:35 PM]
this is weird!!!i can't believe it.again?!how can it be! 3 times this month already argh!!!!nvm...aiyah...today went out with alison and amanda.supposed to study mah.but went to eastpoint first to grab something to eat at bk. went there but yeah i don't quite like it there.too many ccss ppl there. yupz...amanda got drawn away by friends so me and alison were like chatting and stuff.yupz..then hor.first got the group of lower sec bois. i think there were like 3 of them. anyway.they kinda walked past us and one of them was like staring at us.then another guy said.hey u ask lah...like wth...i'm not deaf u know.and i'm not stupid.then shortly after that.we continued talking and there was this chao ah beng lah. who walked in past us. then i saw him again outside.he brought his fren to the stone benches outside bk and sat down.and he was like just staring at us!i mean...how rude could one get.not at all flattering i assure u.quite irritated.then he walked in and plonked his skinny ass down in front of us at our table.talk about uninvited guest!my friend outside wants your number...that was about all he said to me. the next thing he did was shove his handphone under my nose.indicating that i was supposed to deposit my number there and he'd be off.alison didn't like that and started attempting to defend me and refuse the guy on my behalf. yupz...i gave him the number anyway.but i think i didn't do something right...cos up till now i haven't been contacted.phew...don't think i would want to.but if i did.there's always joel around to handle things.love my baby lots...haha.there's this guy at the ssc pool hall that alison thought was cute.only she wasn't too happy about the fact that he kept staring at me.i didn't really notice until she notified me.oh well.sorry gal...sigh. so damn stressed...exams coming and all. argh.better try and cope man.i'm like dying here.having to tutor 3 ppl. haha.i'll manage i guess...in the mean time.i'm off to inspect purple avenger's log of events...cya folks...petra-joelle over and out
Petra-Joelle muttered at [9:51 PM]
haha today damn entertaining can?esp after school...cos last night joel siang and i planned it so well.there's this guy called joshua lah.nick is hamster.he likes me lah.and yeah i don't like him.wad happened the day before is a long story...i'll try to bring in snippets.cos hamster went to my house.and he kissed me there.and not forgetting all the dirty stuff he talked to me about.trust me it was disgusting.never knew he could act that way.nvm.i hid my disgust the whole afternoon.but at night.luckily for me.joel and siang were in pasir ris attending something lah then joel asked me to go meet him.when i did.he sorta left for a while to greet his gang members. just before he came back,joshua called me and wanted to chat.bu yeah i had to cut the conversation short.joel asked me who taht was and i told him.i didn't hesitate that much cos of the abovementioned events. i spilled everything.well at least wad i could remember.and yeah.got the expected result.they wanted to beat him up.so they told me to lay a trap for him and distract him so he wouldn't notice them when they came.i agreed to meet him after school.then i was supposed to bring him to joel's house.and yeah.he fell for the trap.lol.can't believe i acted so well.it's amazing.got my oscars lined up.haha lame.anyway.we were supposed to get on the bus.and then in comes siang and rowena.they were there on the pretext of heading to rowena's house and surprise surprise! it's exactly where my "grandma" lives. so yeah we get off together.and yeah joel was on the bus too just sitting elsewhere. we al got down.and then i was told to walk off while joel came into the picture.then we all went up to joel's house. where erm...yeah things got a little violent.siang punched joshua.goodness joshua sounded like he was gonna cry man...hehe i'm being evil.then they went into joel's room for a nice long chat.yup.joshua sure sounded scared.oh well...had lots of fun after...sigh feels nice to have joel back...love the shit outta him man...sigh...wonder how long this feelings will last.guess it depends on my behaviour...sigh...love him so much.can't let him go...
Petra-Joelle muttered at [9:50 PM]
today damn the tiring.in the morning damn suay.after assembly mrs boo called me up to do somwe of her stupid pupil conferencing and it lasted until like 8.25.then she had a stomachache and had to go to the toilet.before i could even go back to class mrs ethel koh came by and started talking to me so in the end i arrived in class at like 8.35.liek wad the hell man.a maths class summore.sigh.nvm.today got laden down with so much bloody homework.mostly all maths.don't care.dun think i'm gonna do it at all.cos everything looks so foreign to me.which i know means trouble but yeah. heck lah.then maddie kept telling me about her mum so now i'm pissed with her mum.some stuff not worth saying here.apparently joel was trying to call me the whole day but i thought it was my mum that miss called me 11 times.guess joel had a share in that too. oh well.he wanted me to go over today but yeah i had extra class and all so i didn't exactly have the time to go over.sad.nvm i told him that i'll be free from now until the weekend so he's free to contact me when he feels like it.miss him soo much now.and i cant see him tml cos he has to go to the home for the aged.i was told by ms kang never to use old folks home.cos that wasn't exactly the correst term for it.oh well.love my english man.haha.saw HER today but she didn't sit with us.haha she's still showing that bloody attitude of hers.oh well i guess i'll have to scold her again.i did say that was what i would do until she stops right?feels good sticking to my word for once.haha love being mean.haha.just wanna tell that sumone i love him loads and i'm still pining for ya...
Petra-Joelle muttered at [10:00 PM]
been having a really sucky day today.on the verge of tears all the time.see wad u do to me?sigh.nvm.don't wanna talk about shit like this.anyway.i just bought the mcfly cd.and they sound like the beach boys.lol.talk about time warp.and i thought their idols were blink 182.anyway.they've got nice songs.yupz...
Petra-Joelle muttered at [8:06 PM]
alright.i don't even know wad i am to joel anymore.first he breaks up with me.which happened on saturday just in case any gossipmongers wanted to find out.then he calls me today and tries to hurt me by talking about other girls and stuff.and it worked.cried like shit.then he called me again and asks me to go over to his house tml.for god knows wad.sigh i actually feel like a bloody sex toy ok.seriously it ain't funny.and i dunno who to go to for help.cos i love him like crazy and he's treating me like an object.my friends and his friends both ask me how i can tolerate him treating me like this and i just shrug. honestly.i don't know either.sigh.i just love him.dunno why i'm even willing to change for him too.he doesn't like me arguing with him.even when he's in the wrong.but those of u who really know me.u should know that i will argue until the person sees sense.that's just me.but yeah he doesn't like it.so i'm expected to change.and what about him?what about the things that i don't like about him?do i ask him to change?no.absolutely not.i'm not allowed to.all these unhappy feelings and yet i love him so.weird.haha anyway.saturday was really weird for me.i was on the train with maria heading to pasir ris.we got on at kembangan station and there was this group of guys sitting near us.i recognised one of them cos i saw him at bugis dancing para para at the arcade the last time i went there.then maria and i continued our conversation as normal when they started making more noise than usual.then i realised that they were trying to get our attention.i thought they wanted to get to know maria but yeah.in the end it was me they wanted to get to know.which was creepy.anyway.they kept trying to get my attention and yeah.at the end of it all.the guy that i recognised came up to me and said that one of his friends wanted to know my number.but yeah i didn't give it of course. so they all got off at tampines.thank god!but yeah they waved goodbye and blew kisses until i couldn't see them anymore.eeek!creepy man.then we all got off the mrt and walked downstairs cos we were waiting for my mum to pick us up.and guess who i saw.actually he saw me first.charles.i didn't even recognise him.but yeah.he recognised me and said hi.i was pretty shocked cos yeah.thought he hated me and stuff.he's still looking good but that's all in the past ain't it?after the normal greetings i walked off to the pick-up area. sigh two rare events happening in one day.its weird.but it was kinda nice.sorta cheered me up.(u DO remember wad happened on saturday right?)sigh.my eyes are kinda swollen cos i just cried.wad to do.joel just makes me cry a lot.think i'm getting more in touch with my feminine side.SHIT!that's not supposed to happen.either that or it's the stress hitting me hard.
Petra-Joelle muttered at [11:37 PM]
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